lPockyigod, last night I went on the internet to look up cold cap and lace wigs. because I never heard of them. I really like the idea of that lace wig.
Everything you have express is very normal. When you are true to your feelings half the battle is done. Not everyone has the chance to see what they look at bald, we can say we know. Not everyone has the chance to grow their hair back from start and really have the opportunity to really take care of it, we do. Not everyone will ever understand the trauma that this cancer causes, we do. One day you will be able to help someone else that is your age. I cry too. I can't be with my friends dancing because it a crowded room and we know if we get a fever we are off to the emergency room. I was suppose to have chemo treatment today but I have a cold and they said no way. 6 nurses ganged up against me. lol
Cancer loves negative. Stress makes it grow. The reality is we are very much at war with this cancer as someone in the military is trying to acheive their goals. We have to have a master plan to attack it and win.
So we are warrior these days. That is where you and I among others have chosen the Chemo route.
I had two operations and still have the cancer on my breast wall. All the drugs that goes into the vein I am looking at 1 year. 6 treatments of chemo and then the rest is hepceptin, 30 treatments of radiation plus 5 years of pills I am also a third stage. When I am finish there is only be a 5% chance of the cancer ever coming back. I am not doing this twice so this is war!!!!!!!!!
I was so happy to have both operations, yet, I found someone curled up in a corner crying her eyes out. Meanwhile I am thinking get this garbage out of me.
Everytime I turn around I find so many women that have been through it.
It is great if you have peer support person who you can phoned. I phoned her a few times and she is success story of seven years.
I took so many personal growth courses and taught many so I'm drawing from that experience.
Sometimes little things make me laugh for example I was suppose to have this medical oncologist and the doctor was called away. I ended up with a great doctor that I would easily describe her as a long hair goddess.
She has long black hair down to her waist. She curles her hair into long spirals. She wears frilly skirts, dresses, and high heels and one can easily hear her down the hallway, tap tap tap tap. Then she spots my purse and tells me she is totally in love with it. She gives huge hugs and told me that she would be devastated if she would loose her hair.
She makes me feel good because I look at her and reminds me that there is no reason why I can't have long hair again.
I think I have the greatest medical team around me eventhough I disagree with the nurses at times lol.